May 26th, 2003

Psychidellic Rev

5-methoxy-N,N-diisopropyltryptamine

Oh how I love you. You are a breath of fresh air the bitter rotten core of my stangling life desires a cleansing scalple of light and sound. The bubbles of sound distortion floating up through my reality reminding me of where I've been, and where I want to go. Its a new day dawning, I fell in love with a girl, a really great girl who I hope someday, figures out what she really wants. She's beautiful but she just doesnt understand. She doesnt see herself as being a beautiful person or being deserving of those feelings and is afraid to let herself connect with others. Its really sad, its just really sad.

Rev
Psychidellic Rev

Arrgh. . .

Do I have "Josh the Walking Suicide Watch Case" tatooed on my forhead. Why exactly have 4 diffrent people felt the need to sit me down, and attempt to make me realize how important I am, how special I am, how they just couldnt deal with the idea of something happeing to me and how much it would hurt those around me if I was gone. Gee makes me feel like a have the life expectancy of a mayfly and people are expecting me to drop any moment. For fucks sake people, if I was gonna off myself, I would have done it before now.

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